In the most inert way that I have existed and I have functioned till date I am finding my self away from all the good and correct doings.
Reason I don’t know, ways that seem unseen to me, pattern old as new drools all faint like the doodle stick.
May be I am too rudimentary and I have a vacuity within my self to absorb and assimilate things and that make me feel I am not exposed in terms of expression. The more I look and reflect at it i realise no matter how good or bad just talk it out no matter how much at length or if short to a nail.
May be am suffering procrastination from and falling short to match up the priority as and when required and also to the fact that I see how it has haunted me in the past.
Amidst all this I feel a fear of how does it matter and what extent it’s going to cost me hence forth from here. Now when I feel this I feel I am not sure it’s a fear or an anxiety from where it is coming from. Had never thought on these lines as I thought it used to come naturally from within me but where I am no where over here and why is it so? Why? Above all this I feel cramped in what ever little shackles I have along my side on me within me and above me I feel that I seize to make an affect or even the effect fades and I …………
Being clueless to my core to extent that I don’t feel or know what and how to do it? Where and when to react? Just loosing the track of all of it.. for a while I feel I would and I must that is all i feel till I can and would do it with a hope……………….
